AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol...
ok, so I totally just read all of my posts,, and I realize how straight up crazy, deceitful to myself and others, and weird I can sometimes be... lol (laughing at the weird part)  but I guess we all have our faults and falls, right?
 
but oh my goodness!!!!    Right now I feel sure of 2 things... I love my friends, and I believe in a greater power.. a greater something,... a God.   yes, I do... I love my friends who also do, and I love my friends who don't believe in God... They all impact my life in so many good ways, hearing different opinions and such, but I am freaking out a little right now!!!

at times, I am so sure of myself.. I thought fo sho I was going to be  a 7th day Adventist... now I am totally unsure!!!!    some prophecy in the Bible, and things that have happened in my life, seem totally undeniable to me, and the science of this world seems to prove it to me.. life is so complex.... but its this denominations thing.... SO MANY DIFFERENCES.!!!

Me arguing with my dad,  my dad showing me some verses, Dan showing me other verses... Contradictions?  there are not supposed to be any!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (in the Bible that is)   but maybe they are not contradicting... maybe the translation, or how I'm reading it is wrong?  

oh my goodness I don't know  !!!!    =\  

wow, hopefully anyone who reads these things, (hopefully only myself, which I know is somewhat untrue) knows that I am probably not as "out there" as the writings in this on line journal would suggest.. lol... lol.. lol... lol... lol... lol.. lol... lol...
I'll just keep searching....

I feel like there has got to be "the one thing"... I don't know why, but I feel like I gotta try, ya know?   ill read something..... but there must be something.. something I can figure out..... well, I'll try   =D  !!

I hope all my homies are chillin in there lives!! and we can chill, skate, film, or just hang out soon.   fo sho.